i haven't wrote in a little while. i been trying to have some fun in my life but no matter how hard i try i can't escape this nightmare. i see you in everything i do. things i say, things i think about. i just miss the fuck out of you man. i need you with me. nolan please give me strength to live through each day here on earth cause lately i just been wanting to come home. 

yesterday was your 19th birthday. Renata, Pam, the kids and I all went to visit your grave. me and pam poured out some e&j for you and we smoked a fat ass greni just like you like and we all sang you happy birthday. i even baked a cake for you. you would have bashed that shit! i tried to celebrate it as your day but i couldn't help but to feel angry and sad because you didn't even get to make it to see your 19th birthday. i felt you with us through the day but that didn't take away the sadness of you not being here to laugh with us. i kept thinking of what it would be like, what you would be doing if you were here. chiefing the blunt most likely! i know you and mama had a nice party in heaven and i know you were smiling looking down on us. anyways, i just weanted to tell you again, happy birthday Nolo!!! i love you and i miss you so much!
 

2007 was by far the worst year of my life. I lost my best friend, my man, my great grandmother, a couple of friends and people that i have a lot of love for. all i can say is i'm glad it is over and hopefully 2008 will be better than 2007. Happy New Years everyone 

christmas is officially over and i made it. i was in good company, but its just different now. it may take the fun out of it all, but i see christmas as just another day. another day without you. i miss you.

your sisters called me today to tell me that mama passed. i cried when i hung up the phone. i wanted to be strong for them. i know how much mama is to your family. but i know that she is in no more pain and i know that she was met at heavens gate with open arms from loved ones. and i know you are there and you are all happy. Rest In Peace Evelyn Woods. you will be greatly missed.

love, miss hotrod